date: Wednesday, September 28, 2005 @ 9:31 pm
title: Firewall..
Little devils came crawling over my forehead, one by one, they revealed their flawless claws. Beads of sweat reflected the strong sunlight. The howling of my beloved echoed within my ears.
I knew this day would come. I knew deep inside of me that I can never say enough to make you feel loved enough. Irony isn't it? Yesterday, it was just another usual day with no agenda queueing inside of me. Not until you appeared with a puff of your kiss on my cracked lips, my dull world just suddenly flourished with myriad of colours.
You brought me life, love and lies. I promised to live forever to coat you with sweet words, the only desire I hope for was to say this,
'Actually the truth is that.. I'm in love with you since the beginning. But my time is up and can't live long enough to marry you. I'm sure you will find someone else better than me.'
For today, I am your knight but tomorrow I am just an object of disgrace. I can feel the pain in my chest. I can see my love ones, one by one, gradually get consumed by the very thing I toiled to presevere - lives. Although you always complaint that I'm just too hairy and skinny, not taking good care of myself. Dun worry. I'm going off. Death is the key to Paradise.
Kill me. Stab me. Drip me. Bake me.
I'm all yours yesterday today and forever.
Devious inspiration!
Better go away! Be gone!
